In Critical Condition of 13 Weeks in Kolej Teknologi Darulnaim (KTD) -Part One

        After facing many challenged , here I am.In critical condition of 13 weeks in KTD. Not long from now,I will be facing my first final exam...There are a lot of things that happen to me from the beginning until this moment. Before I came here,I can't imagine how I cansurvive here all by my own,far away from my family and my state.But first of all my eagerness to came here can't be stopped.
        First of all before I came to Kelantan and KTD..I'm working as factory workers after two days finishing my SPM exam..I'm working at SONY factory making cover for radios..I want to help my family and earn some money to further my studies..Along that time I'm always thinking what is my SPM result.Is it good or not..and I want to furthert my studies.That time I'm so nervous and curious to know my result.But at that time to something make me feel sad..I'm thinking whether should I further my studies or keep on working to help my  family.I'm pity my mother...She always work hard for our family to ensure that we can get the best.My abah always change his work...Em....I do not know what to do....Then my papa do not always contact me..If he feel want to contact me,then will he contact me.My sisters....they with their dream and ambition...But....no matter how they are  I love them so much..
         The day SPM result has came...Everyone is so curious to know my result except my friends at SONY factory.In my work line at SONY they are all seniors that is woman 30 years and above..I'm the youngers one...Hehe...Everyone loves me..and they even told me If I don't have money to further my study just told them and they will collect money in my line and sent the money in my account...It was so touching....miss them all...I get 4A's,2B's,and 3C's..Alhamdulillah.
        Everyone congrate me..and wish me to get a good opportunity to further my studies with that result..But sadly...I just get offer to further my studies in form 6..My mom don't want me to further my study in form 6...My application for UPU,"Maktad  Perguruan",matrik's,SPA and for all second intake to further my studies is failed.I'm so sad...When people ask me my result and they think that I will get UITM offers and another good offers.But it's not like that..I know because I'm not "bumiputera" with that result my chances to further my studies very small.Alhamdulillah,I have face it wisely..Then my mom friends offer me to further my studies at KTD and I except it..The course that I'm learn now is being choose for me by my mom friends...I except her opinion with open heart..Alhamdulillah...here I am..

PAPA I MISS YOU.......

Almost 2 years after my first meet with my father....I miss him so much...Don't know if he miss me or not..Before this he always contact me...It's ok...maybe he was busy with work....I even dream hugging with my father and both my sisters..When I wake up....I was so sad...It's was just a dream.....Without I notice when I wake up I cry in sleep and hugging my pillow as strong as I could......Papa is a simple person,caring,loving..................Even I don't known him much..............He always think the best for all his daughters.....Papa I miss you so much....Doesn't matter where you are...I wish ALLAH bless you...and open your hearts and mind to accept Islam.......Oh ALLAH give me the strength to face all this.......May ALLAH bless you and your family...Treat and love you family as good as you can as long you have chances to do it.............From someone who miss her father so much...

LOVE OR HATE

Don't get me wrong...not because I'm in love or what..I just wondering and feel so funny about something that I have read in the internet and from other source of information...I have search and read I luv Islam.com....there were one article that attract me untitle"manual bercinta:cinta tak perlu diungkap" It's give a lots of meaning to me..I agree with kak asma' sazali opinion..and I truely believe that the lady is in a very tension situasion.I feel so sorry for that girl...waiting for something that we are not know will be truth or not...In this situasion we may confuse either love or hate that guy...This maybe be a test to both of them...I just wrote what I'm thinking....May ALLAH S.W.T show me the answers..Amin.......

Be Alert

Ramadan I Miss You.........

  Salam,almost a month we left Ramadan behind.Do we still have the opportunity to met Ramadan again.But,for sure we must practise all the good things that we have done in Ramadan.This year Ramadan have teach me a lot of things..Like to be more patient no matter what happen and pray for ALLAH S.W.T guiden.Furthermore,my relationship with my family even much better than before.I was so pleased as I have get very caring friends,senior and warden.I was happy in participated in all college programes in Ramadan month.Can't wait next year Ramadan.Hopefully,next year Ramadan will give me a lot of happiness and guiden for me to improve my self expecially.Amin....

CURIOUS

           Yesterday was college "Sambutan Hari Raya"..I was excited as it was my first time to celebrate hari raya at college.Em,it was very different with others hari raya celebration...what I meant here is the way we celebrate hari raya here...When it's time to pray..there will be a person to "azan".It's was very good to me..As we may forgot the time to pray......I realy want to know better about KTD.