New Day..New Inspiration...

Now I have finish my final exam at ktd...Not for long enough I will go to Ipoh..Continue my study as a new nurse student..I don't know what to say but there is  something has happen to me..When I know I get nurse on the same time I know Tok Wan get  trough an excident.....I don't know what I feel...I feel sad,angry,happy...and many else.....Alhamdulillah.. I have face it wisely.....May ALLAH show me the way..Amin....May ALLAH bless Tok Wan and all my beloved one....

This is Tok Wan.I love him so much.......May ALLAH bless him..Amin..

المصحف الرقمي الفلاشي

المصحف الرقمي الفلاشي

OH ALLAAH....PLEASE SHOW HER THE RIGHT WAY.........ILOVE HER SO MUCH

   On Hari Raya Korban night I have just ask my old friends,Aquam from my facebook about my best friends facebook adress,Nor Hafiza Binti Nordin..But I didn't get it because Aquam can't find her facebook adress..I don't know why my heart really wanted to contact her back at that time...We have lost contact about a year.Then,I ask Aquam fiza handphone number..Firstly,he didn't want to give me fiza handphone number as he want me to exchange fiza handphone number with my new handphone number....But,I didn't give him my handphone number and for return I don't get fiza handphone number..I was so sad at that time....On the spot,I log out from my facebook.The second Hari Raya Korban night...I on line my facebook again...Alhamdulillah...ALLAH has open Aquam heart to give me fiza handphone number without a condition..I was really happy.I ask him why he just give me fiza handphone number just like that..He said that I deserve to know fiza handphone number as I am his and fiza best friends..Alhamdulillah...praise to ALLAH S.W.T............I have message Fiza...But sadly it was wrong fiza...The person name is Hafizah..not Nor Hafiza...I appologise to her as I was wrong..But it's ok..What has make me more happy is Aquam has found Fiza facebook adress and he gave it to me...Without wasting my time I send a message to her facebook...I was smilling at that time because I know that is her facebook...I will wait her to reply my message.The third Hari Raya Korban night I online facebook......SHE REPLY MY MESSAGE!!!!!...I was so happy....Then I chatting with her...she asking me whether I'm ok or not..I said that I'm not very well...she was angry with me as I don't want to go to the hospital..Then...I said to her" I'm ok....don't worry..."My turn to ask her about her...I ask her about her life now..What really make me shock is she just told me that nothing great happen in my life.....I at college now my self..."JUST............ I JUST TAKE A DRUG".........Her statement............her statement.......make me shut up and "istigfar" to ALLAH for a while......without I notice my tears was burst....I love her so much....Oh ALLAH.....what such a big test to me....But,I tell my self...it's so ok...maybe she was lying to me...ask she love to make joke with me....I take my strength and start chatting back with her..I ask her for how long she has take it...she said....almost 2 weeks and she said she can't leave it...my tears get louder...I ask her don't she love her mother and grandfather...i said I love her so much..She said.."YES.......I LOVE THEM VERY MUCH...BUT I CAN'T STOP TAKING IT!!!!".....Then,I ask her...what type of drug she take...and she said....BABY ICE!!!!!......I try to advise her to stop takinG it....She said....."PLEASE RELAX.....I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING....I'M NOT ADDICTED TO IT"......I STARTED GET ANGRY....BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT SHE TOLD ME WAS A LIE.......FOR THE LAST TIME I ASK HER WHY SHE SAID LIKE THAT,THAT SHE SAID SHE WAS NOT ADDICTED TO IT.......HER ANSWERS........HER STATEMENT.......WHAT SHE SAID........I ANSWER LIKE THAT BECAUSE "KITE SAJE SUKE-SUKE"..........I FAINT AFTER READ HER ANSWER.....THEN,WHEN I'M AWAKE...I CRY....AND CRY.......I FEEL I'M USELESS AS HER BEST FRIENDS...CAN'T STOP HER FROM BEING DRUG VICTIM.....SHE ON THE SPOT LOG OUT FROM FACEBOOK........WHAT SHOULD I DO.......WHAT SHOULD I DO......OH ALLAH...PLEASE SHOW HER THE RIGHT WAY.......I LOVE HER SO MUCH....

WE CAN'T STOP TO CHANGE AND BE A BETTER PERSON!!!!!

Assalamualaikum,I'm so please that ALLAH S.W.T still love me and show me the way to recorrect my mistake..Forgive me god...Forgive me when I'm whine....Forgive me when I'm whine....We have to always change to be better person as we know our iman do not at the top every time.Without we realise our mind and expecially our eye make a lot of mistake....Forgive me ALLAH when the moment I don't remember you...When the moment I left you behind...Forgive me....Forgive me....We always said don't do this,don't do that...Do realy we do what we said...This is why people can't listen or follow what we said and advise....I do make mistake....Let us together make an improvement together and don't just want to judge others...May ALLAH S.W.T bless us all with ni'mah of Iman  and ISLAM...Amin...

Just as remember to all as a muslim........Human can't never run away from doing mistake..

In Critical Condition of 13 Weeks in Kolej Teknologi Darulnaim (KTD) -Part Two

      When I first arrived in Kelantan,my parents sent me here by bus.My parents accompanied me for the registration session until that night.Theyhave to go back home to Kedah as soon as posibble to look after my two sweet younger sisters as they are worried about them.I'm so sad as my younger sisters can't accompany me to Kelantan for some reason.But it is okay because I have their spirit in me.I missed them so much as they always make jokes and we always disturd and jokewith each other everyday.Everytime I go back to Kedah I will not forget to buy something for my parents and to both my younger sisters.
     I'm the second intake for semester one KTD intake this year and at that time I'm the only one female student for semester one engineering course.Al-Masir programme is exciting for me as I can learn,know many things about KTD and the most important I get know ISLAM better than before on how to practise ISLAM in life.The most exciting programme in Al-Masir are the English presentation.Actually I was panic during the English presentation as I'm new at that time and the final date is just about a week to go.Alhamdulillah,all of it went through smoothly..
      At that time I'm staying at college campus.Only eight second intake female student live there that time.It's a little bit scared as just eight of us and four warden live there at that time.We like a big family...going and doing anything together..Miss that moment..But now everything is vanish as something had happen between us..No matter what.. I love them all so much..May ALLAH S.W.T open their heart for good things

In Critical Condition of 13 Weeks in Kolej Teknologi Darulnaim (KTD) -Part One

        After facing many challenged , here I am.In critical condition of 13 weeks in KTD. Not long from now,I will be facing my first final exam...There are a lot of things that happen to me from the beginning until this moment. Before I came here,I can't imagine how I cansurvive here all by my own,far away from my family and my state.But first of all my eagerness to came here can't be stopped.
        First of all before I came to Kelantan and KTD..I'm working as factory workers after two days finishing my SPM exam..I'm working at SONY factory making cover for radios..I want to help my family and earn some money to further my studies..Along that time I'm always thinking what is my SPM result.Is it good or not..and I want to furthert my studies.That time I'm so nervous and curious to know my result.But at that time to something make me feel sad..I'm thinking whether should I further my studies or keep on working to help my  family.I'm pity my mother...She always work hard for our family to ensure that we can get the best.My abah always change his work...Em....I do not know what to do....Then my papa do not always contact me..If he feel want to contact me,then will he contact me.My sisters....they with their dream and ambition...But....no matter how they are  I love them so much..
         The day SPM result has came...Everyone is so curious to know my result except my friends at SONY factory.In my work line at SONY they are all seniors that is woman 30 years and above..I'm the youngers one...Hehe...Everyone loves me..and they even told me If I don't have money to further my study just told them and they will collect money in my line and sent the money in my account...It was so touching....miss them all...I get 4A's,2B's,and 3C's..Alhamdulillah.
        Everyone congrate me..and wish me to get a good opportunity to further my studies with that result..But sadly...I just get offer to further my studies in form 6..My mom don't want me to further my study in form 6...My application for UPU,"Maktad  Perguruan",matrik's,SPA and for all second intake to further my studies is failed.I'm so sad...When people ask me my result and they think that I will get UITM offers and another good offers.But it's not like that..I know because I'm not "bumiputera" with that result my chances to further my studies very small.Alhamdulillah,I have face it wisely..Then my mom friends offer me to further my studies at KTD and I except it..The course that I'm learn now is being choose for me by my mom friends...I except her opinion with open heart..Alhamdulillah...here I am..

PAPA I MISS YOU.......

Almost 2 years after my first meet with my father....I miss him so much...Don't know if he miss me or not..Before this he always contact me...It's ok...maybe he was busy with work....I even dream hugging with my father and both my sisters..When I wake up....I was so sad...It's was just a dream.....Without I notice when I wake up I cry in sleep and hugging my pillow as strong as I could......Papa is a simple person,caring,loving..................Even I don't known him much..............He always think the best for all his daughters.....Papa I miss you so much....Doesn't matter where you are...I wish ALLAH bless you...and open your hearts and mind to accept Islam.......Oh ALLAH give me the strength to face all this.......May ALLAH bless you and your family...Treat and love you family as good as you can as long you have chances to do it.............From someone who miss her father so much...

LOVE OR HATE

Don't get me wrong...not because I'm in love or what..I just wondering and feel so funny about something that I have read in the internet and from other source of information...I have search and read I luv Islam.com....there were one article that attract me untitle"manual bercinta:cinta tak perlu diungkap" It's give a lots of meaning to me..I agree with kak asma' sazali opinion..and I truely believe that the lady is in a very tension situasion.I feel so sorry for that girl...waiting for something that we are not know will be truth or not...In this situasion we may confuse either love or hate that guy...This maybe be a test to both of them...I just wrote what I'm thinking....May ALLAH S.W.T show me the answers..Amin.......

Be Alert

Ramadan I Miss You.........

  Salam,almost a month we left Ramadan behind.Do we still have the opportunity to met Ramadan again.But,for sure we must practise all the good things that we have done in Ramadan.This year Ramadan have teach me a lot of things..Like to be more patient no matter what happen and pray for ALLAH S.W.T guiden.Furthermore,my relationship with my family even much better than before.I was so pleased as I have get very caring friends,senior and warden.I was happy in participated in all college programes in Ramadan month.Can't wait next year Ramadan.Hopefully,next year Ramadan will give me a lot of happiness and guiden for me to improve my self expecially.Amin....

CURIOUS

           Yesterday was college "Sambutan Hari Raya"..I was excited as it was my first time to celebrate hari raya at college.Em,it was very different with others hari raya celebration...what I meant here is the way we celebrate hari raya here...When it's time to pray..there will be a person to "azan".It's was very good to me..As we may forgot the time to pray......I realy want to know better about KTD.

Happy Memories

Kuih Raya and Cake

Tomorrow I will go back to kelantan....Can't wait to bring "kuih raya" and cake to my friend...expecially sabahan..I made the cake and "kuih raya" my self.I wonder what they will comment about it..Em...it's ok I can improve my self wiht their comment....salam...may ALLAH bless us all...amin

DIFFERENT HARI RAYA

Actually I don'tknow how to discribe it..This Hari Raya I'm not feeling happy.I don't know why.Maybe because Ramadan is leaving us...Tokwan is not feeling well..and maybe I feel sad I have to go back to Kelantan to continue my study..Maybe there are something ALLAH want me to realise happines is not just what we need..We will always forget ALLAH went we happy right???Em...praise to ALLAH I think  I have found my way..I realy need any advise  from somebody right now..mom where are you???wait for me....Here I come..Salam...May ALLAH bless us all..Amin

FINALLY I GET HOME

Salam,I  get home last week.On 2th September.at evening....It was a bored trip as I travel home alome...All my family members are in the pink of health..praise to Allah..Tokwan was not very well as he got high blood pressure..but now he is getting better...Tokwan now is at his son house celebrating Hari Raya Aidilfitri at Sungai Petani...em,just that for now..see you soon..salam

As Human Being

Salam,Alhamdulillah.....I feel more comfortable and calm now.....Last week holiday I just rest my mind,pray for ALLAH forgiveness,rethink what I have done until ALLAH test me with others problem ..There is something that had happen and I was very surprise with it..It has make me do not have appetite to eat,can't sleep well and miss my mum very much...Don't get it wrong...It was not about love but about my concern to my friend....There have done something wrong.....I never expect they could do that....and I was so shock and sad....I don't know to believe who....and I have decide do not to trust both of them....What I would do now is pray for their happiness and may ALLAH S.W.T show the right path to both of them..I know we as human do not have the right to judge other people and it was useless to mad at them if they,their self do not want to repent and improve their self....ALLAH is the most forgiven in this world.......pray for his forgiven......don't forget our mum bless can ensure  our happinessin this world...MAY ALLAH S.W.T BLESS OUR LIFE AND SHOW US THE RIHG PATH..AMIN.......

CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME...

Almost 3 month I'm in Kolej Teknologi Darul Naim,Kelantan.Many happening and sad things has happen.....But my home town is still the best place for me.The place where I have known since  I was small,playing "Toi","Batu Sambut" or  known as "Batu Seremban",and many other kind of game like soccer to..Em,quiet funny when I think about it..But the main things is I really miss my family.With situation my mom nagging at my younger sister and I it really interesting because we love to disturb our mom and make she love....That's all for now....I have work to do....Salam

FEEL GLAD BEING CHOOSEN AS MUSLIM

Praise to ALLAH S.W.T for who I am now.Actually sometimes I feel ashamed of my self.It's not easy to be a daughter to a women who revert Islam.What I mean here is,the person who was not family origin Islam always being a public figure.Everything we do,said people will take attention....I have tried to bring my self well.Sometimes,I feel very sad on what some people talk and said about my mom.They didn't try to correct people like my mom if they miss understood about something in Islam,but what they just love to do is critic and laughing...But Alhamdulillah,praise to Allah my mom can face all that with ni'mah of Islam and the encouragement from people who love Islam very much.Thanks to them...........I wish if more people can be like them.....LOVE ISLAM

Love Forever

Yesterday,my mum had called me.We have talk for a while and then she gave the handphone to Tokwan.I fell so happy as I love and miss Tokwan very much.But the things that make me very sorry to him is,I can't take care of him as he was not very well.If I was at home now I may cook or chat with him as he love to tell story went he was still young,advise me and I love to hear about it even he will always told about the same story.He had a high blood pressure and he was very old as his age has reach 84.Emmm...I have cry as I talk to him.I told him I love him very much and Tokwan says he know about it.Tokwan and I have known each other for almost 17 years and we have no blood connection at all as we just a neighbours.He says he may wait me at home during this raya holiday.I get shock at first but he had calm me down,he says everyone will die one day...Finaly,Tokwan promise me that he will wait for me to go home and celebrate raya with him.After that,I have talk to my mum as Tokwan and I have finish talking.I  have ask my mum to take care Tokwan very well as he stay alone and I can't bear if anything happen to him.My mum have promise she will take good care on Tokwan.I can't wait to go home and meet him......

My Mother's Birthday...

Two day's ago was my mother's birthday..I almost forgot about it..I feel upset because I can't celebrate it with my mom...Last year,I had bought my mom a cake with my own money...I felt so happy  because I can celebrate my mother's 49th birthday.But it is ok I can celebrate it even I can't be with them.I love my mom very much.No one can replace her in my heart..My mom is always there for me...for loving and care about me...LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM......